Borges

Learning

After some time, you learn the subtle difference between
holding a hand
and imprisoning a soul;
You learn that love does not equal sex,
and that company does not equal security,
and you start to learn….
That kisses are not contracts and gifts are not promises,
and you start to accept defeat with the head up high
and open eyes,
and you learn to build all roads on today,
because the terrain of tomorrow is too insecure for plans…
and the future has its own way of falling apart in half.

And you learn that if it’s too much
even the warmth of the sun can burn.

So you plant your own garden and embellish your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring flowers to you.

And you learn that you can actually bear hardship,
that you are actually strong,
and you are actually worthy,
and you learn and learn…and so every day.

Over time you learn that being with someone
because they offer you a good future,
means that sooner or later you’ll want to return to your past.

Over time you comprehend that only who is capable
of loving you with your flaws, with no intention of changing you
can bring you all happiness.

Over time you learn that if you are with a person
only to accompany your own solitude,
irremediably you’ll end up wishing not to see them again.

Over time you learn that real friends are few
and whoever doesn’t fight for them, sooner or later,
will find himself surrounded only with false friendships.

Over time you learn that words spoken in moments of anger
continue hurting throughout a lifetime.

Over time you learn that everyone can apologize,
but forgiveness is an attribute solely of great souls.

Over time you comprehend that if you have hurt a friend harshly
it is very likely that your friendship will never be the same.

Over time you realize that despite being happy with your friends,
you cry for those you let go.

Over time you realize that every experience lived,
with each person, is unrepeatable.

Over time you realize that whoever humiliates
or scorns another human being, sooner or later
will suffer the same humiliations or scorn in tenfold.

Over time you learn to build your roads on today,
because the path of tomorrow doesn’t exist.

Over time you comprehend that rushing things or forcing them to happen
causes the finale to be different form expected.

Over time you realize that in fact the best was not the future,
but the moment you were living just that instant.

Over time you will see that even when you are happy with those around you,
you’ll yearn for those who walked away.

Over time you will learn to forgive or ask for forgiveness,
say you love, say you miss, say you need,
say you want to be friends, since before
a grave, it will no longer make sense.

But unfortunately, only over time…

Да

Не

не плаче пред хората
не се оплаква
не мълчи на масата
не говори за себе си
не припада и
не вика бърза помощ
не отива на психоаналитик
не реже вените си
не се драматизира
не престава да работи
не потъва в алкохол
не се поддава на отчаяние
не имитира щастие
не се смее изкуствено
не премълчава нарочно
не изпитва агресия
не изпитва жал
не отказва цигарите
не променя себе си
не си взима отпуска
не тръгва на стоп
не ражда изкуствена самота
не се обгражда с хора
не прописва стихове
не слуша различно музика
не си води дневник
не спира с четенето
не престава да се люби
не губи удоволствие
не се отказва от насладата
не пропуска радостта
не залоства смеха си
не изпитва желание да се махне
не бяга
не говори за себе си
не мълчи на масата
не се оплаква

просто понякога
усеща непреодолимо желание
да изчезне в шепите си

(Емауил А. Видински)

подозрение

YOU AND ME AND THE WORLD
Werner Aspenström

Don’t ask who you are and who I am
and why everything exists.
Let professors go into that,
they’re paid for it.
Place the kitchen scales on the table
and let reality weigh itself.
Slip on your coat.
Switch off the hall light.
Shut the door.
Let the dead embalm the dead.

Here we are walking.
The one in the white wellingtons
is you.
The one in the black wellingtons
is me.
And the rain falling over both of us
is the rain.

Йорданка Белева, из “преброяване на желанията”

да ми бяхте приятели нонстоп
менеизследователи да не бяхте
или други подобни гробари
да си имам каквото си нямам
по-хубаво от вашето да ми беше
или вие изобщо да нямахте
да ми се беше досега сбъднало
дето не знам какво искам

Уилям Карлос Уилямс

Една приятелска раздяла

Ти? Пресметнато е.
Ти изпиваш ми кръвта,
това е всичко.

И защо
да се тревожа
за шофьора и хлебаря?

Аз не мисля за това.
Както ти към мен,
така и аз към теб.

Според мен
върви по дяволите. Аз
няма да се отзова отново.

 

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Кодекс

Биещо сърце сред

перушина

от крила и от гърди

на тукашната

пустота е

антитеза

В любовта,

любов скъпа, любов моя

подробността е всичко